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Have fun when being hectic
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
HELLO ALLSURPRISED THAT I'M NOT YET DEAD?
YEAH MAN!!!! I SURVIVED!!!!
SIP has been hectic since the 2nd week onwards, everyday is eat shit sleep work eat sleep work yada yada
But but but but i survived because VOX has really nice peooople. The recent events brought us closer to the rest of the team and it's starting to have a homely feel after all! Though i admit in the beginning it seemed almost like we 3 interns were by ourselves and the rest of the company in another, but it's slowly starting to merge together.
Especially people like Jean hahahahhaa i like her so much she's like adorably friendly and i just realised today we have soooo much in common. Not bad ley really! Though we are like, i think, um, 6-8 years of age apart? And she's the lao jiao in VOX so she taught me many stuff today :D
Hahahaha, VOX people are all young at heart and aren't we cool cos we got 5 bosses?
Lawl, okay i better go bathe and get some rest before i slog for the next few days.
F1 IS SUCH A B.............
What don't look at me i dint swear. i was just saying F1 is such a bore ;) (preparations wise)
Met with many situations today that got me panicking and distracted but still i'm glad its all solved, in a way or so.
Okay i have decided! I shall learn 'It's you' & 'Lachata' with sis first before going to bed.
Nitex nitex all lurbbbzxxx.
my secret crush
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Kyuuuuu~
Handsome, can sing, can dance, humorous, cute, and everything else.
-lovey dovey eyes-
Let them speak (II)
Saturday, September 12, 2009
You told me, there's no need to talk it out. Cause its too late to proceed and slowly, I took your words and walked away. No looking back I wont regret, no, I will find my way. I'm broken, but still I have to say It's Alright, OK, I'm so much better without you. I wont be sorry, alright, okay, so don't you bother what I do. No matter what you say I wont return. Our bridge has burned down, I'm stronger now. Alright, Ok, I'm so much better without you, I wont be sorry.
You played me, betrayed me. Your love was nothing but a game. Portrayed a role you took control, I, I couldn't help but fall so deep. But now I see things clear
Don't waste you fiction tears on me, just save them for someone in need. It's way too late, I'm closing the door.
-Ashley Tisdale; It's Alright It's Okay
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All my life you've had an opinion, doing things for the wrong reasons. Well not today
Don't you know I think for myself, I get on fine without anybody's help, Don't care what you say yeah
I'm breaking your heart, And I'm breaking apart. All you do is hold me down (hold me down)
Try to make me someone I don't know, I'm not the girl you'd thought you found
What would you do if I told you, You can't control my life. What would you say, If I left today with no regrets and no goodbye. What would you do if I told you, There is no more you and I. What would you say if I walked away and left you there to cry
I don't know what's coming over you, Or how we fell apart, I tried so hard but I don't believe in you, You're not the guy I thought I knew
What would you do if I told you, You can't control my life. And what would you say, If I left today with no regrets and no goodbye. What would you do if I told you, There is no more you and I. What would you say if I walked away and left you there to cry
What would you say if I said to you just go ahead and cry
-The Veronicas; Cry
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There's no need for me to hold any more hopes. Owarida.
Let them speak
Friday, September 11, 2009
"I've been making a list of the things they don’t teach you at school. They don’t teach you how to love somebody. They don’t teach you how to be famous. They don’t teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don’t teach you how to walk away from someone you don’t love any longer. They don’t teach you how to know what’s going on in someone else’s mind. They don’t teach you what to say to someone who’s dying. They don’t teach you anything worth knowing." | — | Neil Gaiman |
"There are those hearts that never mend again once they are broken. Or if they do mend, they heal themselves in a crooked and lopsided way, as if sewn together by a careless craftsman."
| — | The Tale of Despereaux |
"Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can’t have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life, but as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don’t know what they want."
| — | Grey’s Anatomy |
"It’s not about being who someone else wants you to be. It’s about being completely yourself and finding someone who loves each and every bit of it. Someone who loves your laugh and your smile and the sound of your voice and the things you say. Someone who loves you even when you’re in a bad mood or when your face is red and puffy with tears."
taken from, eletheowl.tumblr.com
JR's oscars award
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Haha i'm bored... So here i'll be blogging bout my top few super liked celebrities.HERE GOES!
Best Looking Men (America context)
Everybody knows who Zac Efron is and don't ask me why Keanu Reeves, i just think he's hot
Best Looking Men (Asian context)
Of courrzzxxeee, Show Luo, and the oh-so-popular Lee Min Ho
Best Looking Men (Mixed...?)
Hahaha, Shirota Yuu (Jap+Spanish) is the Hana Kimi guy, and Daniel Henney (Korean+British) the one that acted in one movie (Agent Zero in Xmen Wolverine & 'Spring Waltz' a korean drama)
Anyway....
DOESNT HE LOOK LIKE AN ANIME CHARACTER LIVE? LOL. Love the hair. It's Shirota Yuu btw.
Best Looking Women (American context)
Eva Longoria & Emma Watson are hot hot hot
Best Looking Women (Asian context)
BoA is actually mixed too lol, and FanFan is totally my favvvvv she's so pweetttyy. Those who sing K frequent with me will know how i say "She very pretty hor she very pretty hor" everytime i sing her songs hahaha
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Best Looking Anime Favourites (LOL ^^)
Tsukiyomi Ikuto from Shugo Chara, & Dark Mousy from D.N. Angel.
HAHA DONT ASK ME WHY I LIKE PURPLE HAIR CHARACTERS. They are just shuai.
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Anyway there's a new korean band introduced by Sean, haha called F(x)! Yes functions in amaths.
Haha for those who know SNSD, the one in the middle is Jessica Jung's sister, Krystal Jung. She's only 15.... Hahahaha. And the 2nd one called Amber, is actually a GIRL. HAHA WHO TOTALLY LOOKS LIKE A COOL SHIT BOY. Seriously, she pawns all the guys in Singapore easily. I think she'll make many girls turn crazy for her. She's an American-Chinese btw! i don't think there's any korean blood in her but anyway her korean is thumb upz, and she's only 17.
Hahahaha total madness. The 4th one is Victoria, she's 22 the leader of the group and also a Chinese, but also very fluent in korean. The rest are pure Koreans, with their age ranging from 15-16, lol crazy right i know. THEY ARE SO MATURED LOOKING?!
Okay done with my destressing frenzy, time to go to bed and get ready for work tomorrow.
For every heartbroken lady,
"Don't worry, he’ll miss you. You’re the best he could get, and he blew it. Don’t let him make you think for one second that this was your fault. It’s not. He screwed up, and you did absolutely nothing wrong. You gave him your heart, and you trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn’t. And honestly, he’s not mature enough. He’s not smart enough. If he was smart, he would have cared for you with every fiber of his being and been with you every spare second he could. But he didn’t, and now he’s gone. But don’t you cry. Don’t call him telling him you miss him. Don’t IM him, don’t message him, don’t comment him, don’t talk to him in the hallways. Just pretend you don’t care. And don’t be surprised when he comes crawling back saying he made a mistake. And if you want to go, go with him again. But make him work for you. Don’t be his doormat. Don’t let him in the first time he rings the bell. Make him come back every day until you trust him enough. If he doesn’t come back after a couple of tries, just let him go. But if he comes back every day, then he’s worth it. Trust me.. he’s worth it."Lovely quote.
Letting go?
"Maybe instead of thinking you know everything,
let your ego go for a while and you’d start to get to know her.
And maybe if you threw away your fears of getting hurt,
and just loved her, maybe you two could make it."
- eletheowl.tumblr
But it was all too late.
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"There comes a point where you miss someone so much that you can hear their voice echo in your head. And you can hear the names that they used to call you, the words they used to tell you. You memorized their laugh, their smile, and their silly ways. You can also feel their arms around you and you don’t want to let go even though you know it’s just an illusion. Everytime your phone rings, you smile because it’s them that’s calling. Everytime you hear their name, your heart beats 100 times faster and sometimes, you can’t even breathe. You knew that looking back on the tears would make you laugh, but you never knew that looking back on the laughs would also make you cry. All you want is to go back in time. not to the time that you first met, to the time that you were known as nothing, but strangers. But no matter what, you’re in denial. You hide your feeling so no one would know. You put on a fake smile and don’t let a single tear break through. You’re so used to hiding your feelings that you don’t even realize the pain you’re causing for yourself. Your thoughts become invisible. It’s still there, but no one knows. Like a love letter you didn’t show. And you’re hurting no one but yourself."
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"The thing about life that I’ve learned is that you’re going to get hurt. You’re going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours. You’re going to suffer some kind of loss. But you will also have those moments where you heal. Those moments are the best. You feel like you smile for the first time again. you feel like you’re alive again. Life just kind of restarts."
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"Does it hurt you to know that we haven’t spoken to each other in days? Does it hurt you to know that we can’t look at each other without looking away? Does it hurt you to know that everything we had as friends is gone? Does it hurt? Cause it’s hurting me"
(Aint this true? It applies to all ex-es i guess, lol.)
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These quotes are all so true, it speaks right to the heart.
Maybe living life on the perspective of "What comes, comes. What goes, goes." will be easier on me.
Now, when will my 'restart' come?
cant live with or without you
How can you say you love me
when you dont even know what hurts me
SIP has started! It's pretty smooth sailing, with the workload and stuff but i guess there are more coming up soon. Had briefing over F1 @ Flyer and am really exited about it cuz it sounds like fun and it seems that i'll have alot to learn from it :3
Well though, been having disturbed sleeps and frequent headaches which make me, really pissed off cos im tired i want to rest but i cant, lol.
On a side note, i have this really bad urge to go sing K, though my singing sucks now, though i just sang 2 days ago, and though i probably wont have the time or the crowd to go with me.
Bleh.
some say love
Friday, September 4, 2009
It's the heart, afraid of breaking.
Maybe i'm unworthy.
Love has been but a game,
of endless vicious cycles,
that leaves me dry and weary,
that leaves me feeling like a devil,
because all i'm good at is breaking hearts,
and getting mine broken.
I feel like giving up.
you can't rid the world of sorrow, but you can choose to live in joy.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Man,What was i thinking. I'm never alone, there's always someone who cares someone who stay by me no matter through thick or thin. That's none other than Daddy (:
Indeed the world is filled with sorrows, not that you can control it, but it is present in this world. What matters is your relationship towards it, whether you want to view it lightly or whether you are taking it too hardly. You can live in joy, it's all about choices and perceptiveness.
I'm gonna try living happily now, cos life is short, there's not much time for you to stay sorrowful and worry for. That kind of life, would be a total dread. Might as well end it earlier ;)
So live happy! Live happy live happy live happy -chants-
Blood is thicker than water
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I, finally know the deepest meaning of this phrase.Who will be willing to cancel her appointments just keep you company when you needed someone? No one else but my dearest sister. My real blooded sis. Thanks mei love you forever.
Others, well. I have no comments. Some tried to be there, some don't even care. Haha, i guess these are times when you can see who actually really cares for you and who are just putting up a show.
Sick of everything, its so hard to please every single one and getting nothing in return.
Life is one tough road, and yet i realised, i'm walking it alone.