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reaching my limits
Thursday, August 27, 2009
You can't fix something that wasn't whole to start with.
The weather is perfect for sleeping, but I have no choice but to reluctantly mug for MICE paper. But well, nothing's going in, obviously.
Nice weather,
Cant sleep,
Want to slack,
Boring MICE,
Heartaches,
Headaches,
Down and over,
What could get worse?
I want a keyboard/digi piano
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
I wanna escape this town for a little while,
Hide and run for a thousand miles,
With the piano as my lovely pal.
Updates on exams:
1. F&B obviously, went relatively well for everybody
2. Gaming was quite a disappointment to me
3. DPD was actually awesome, just that i did not list examples
Next up, LSO.
LSO is gonna kill me, really.
killer exams
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Woke up early today to go see see at Lighthouse Wdlands and wow it's so nice, the architectural design made me turn my head here and there to look around.While i was on my way there, i saw an old lady walking very slowly and unstably, holding an umbrella/walking stick on her right and bags of stuff on her left. Was contemplating if i should go over to offer some help, then decided not to cos there were many people around, maybe someone would help. Well but till i saw her crossing the road and everybody dint even notice her existence, i went up to her, and said in chinese "Aunty you need my help? (Aunty ni xu yao wo bang ni ma?)"
Guess what? She freaking stared at me and replied in a rude tone, "DONT WANT! (BU YAO!)" then continue walking.
Wa i tell you i super stunned! I'm like, how can you reject someone's goodwill like that! Even if you wanna reject, do and say it in a nice tone man. Times like this really make me associate with the Chinese idiom, "Hao xin mei hao bao".
And everybody was staring back at me like i'm some weirdie. I stared back with those see-what-see-never-see-people-tio-rejected-before-huh look. Embarassing................ You don't have to be so hostile right aunty...... Break my lil heart this is so demoralizing ):
Which reminds me, that time when i was bai-ka, i limped into the mrt train and it was peak period. I saw one seat, slowly made my way over to it, everybody saw me and give me those "aww, so poor thing" look (or i assumed so) and didn't take that seat. While i was right in front of the seat, the mrt doors opened, one fxcking fat aunty rushed over and just freaking sat, ON THAT SEAT RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME and immediately closed her eyes pretending to sleep!!! Boy was i shocked, shocked and stunned like mad! I stood there flabbergasted and the man beside me just smile and shrugged it off.
Whatever happened to Singapore's Singa Award ar? (You know that cartoon lion that always smile like some idiot and give the 'good' thumbsign? or did it not.) Anyway it went extinct i bet, Singaporeans are SO not gracious or courteous.
-Takes deep deep breath-
Okay i'm done ranting, must be all the stress piling up from trying to decipher Doctor Lee's chim textbook full with numeric and grammatical errors. Which drives me to think how he got his ***..... :x
Eh, just a random thought! I don't wanna get sued.
worms worms worms
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Ya' know,I think there's something terribly wrong with my stomach and digestive systems. For the past whole week i've been having diarrhoea on and off, and it occurs after i eat each meal. Simply speaking:
No eat = No stomachache
-crys- It hurts. My tummy hurts everytime i have food inside it. Like now, its hurting again. Even when all i'm eating is porridge. And i've been eating alot recently. Like, alot. I get so damn easily so i keep eating. But my weight's still ranging at 38-40kg that's madness, right? When i freaking have a spare tyre on my tummy lol it makes no sense, AT ALL!
Stomach flu? Or worms in my tummy? Or..... stomach cancer? I think i'm dying........
Bah, it hurts so much. I'm gonna waste the remaining porridge in the bowl.
Sim went mad
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Dear all, if i haven't ask from you your numbers please kindly give them to me
cuz my sim card went crazy it just made disappearing acts with all my contact numbers
Thanks loads :D
RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, mp3 player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 15 friends
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Meet you there (Busted) - Wtf makes no sense lol
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Too little too late (JoJo) - Lol sad
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Genie (SNSD) - LOL I FEEL LIKE A GENIE? THEN CAN I GRANT MY OWN WISH TO PASS FNB WITH FLYING COLORS?
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Apologize (OneRepublic) - LOL WTF
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Namida no Mukou [It means, past the tears] (Stereopony) - Not bad a motto ley
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
4ever (The Veronicas) - AHAHAHA!
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Way Back Into Love (Taeyeon/Jessica SUJU version) - HAHA? they too loving le
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Goodbye (SecondhandSerenade) - What the. I dont lor, lol
WHAT IS 2+2?
88 (LM.C) [It's a jap song] - HAHA MY MATHS FAIL SO TERRIBLY 2+2=88
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Rolling Star (YUI) - HAHA MY STAR
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Breathe easy (Blue) - lol!
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Falls Apart (Sugar Ray) - Wa, so emo meh ):
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
It's gonna be love (Mandy Moore) - I wanna be 'love' when i grow up? -.-?
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Amaranth (Nightwish) - LOL COOL cuz amaranth means an imaginary, undying flower.
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
All we know (Paramore) - Yes la yes la they know everything about me
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Always All Ways (Lostprophets) - Cannot be danced, but a nice song!
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Almost, But (Sleeq) - Yea lor, ALMOST alive BUT not. ):
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Dango Daikazoku [Dango Big Family] (Chata) - LMAAAAAO Dango is a jap food. my hobby is eating :3
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
VALENTI (BoA) - Yeah they are all my valentinessss
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
The Joke (Lifehouse) - Ya lor if im the joke its so embarassing ):
HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Goodnight and Goodbye (Jonas Brothers) - Not bad, a peaceful death while sleeping
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Move Along (All American Rejects) - Regret moving along? lol...
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Say it Again (Marie Digby) - Eh really ley! When someone say smth funny you will say "Eh say it again ley!" then laugh like shit again hee hee
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Mighty is the power of the Cross (Chris Tomlin) - Sob, the love of God
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Chasing Cars (Snow Patrol) - means i wont ever get married?! ):!
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Baby it's you (JoJo, BoWwow) - LOLOLOL THIS IS FUNNY
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Toguro (The GazettE) - Uh what does it mean hee hee
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Life (YUI) - Wow thats a big ambition
WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Because of you (Ne-Yo) - LOL......
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Nobody wants to be lonely (Ricky Martin/Christina Aguilera)
Hehe quite interesting!
A chat with god
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Me : Tell me, why has life become complicated now?God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.
Me : Why are we then constantly unhappy?
God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.
Me : But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.
Me : But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty ...
God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me : If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.
Me : But still, why should we go through such tests? Why cant we be free from problems?
God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me : Frankly, in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..
God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.
Me : In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.
Me : What surprises you about people?
God : When they suffer they ask, "Why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me". Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.
Me : Sometimes I ask, Who am I, Why am I here. I can't get the answer.
God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.
Me : How can I get the best out of life?
God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts or doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me: Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
dilemma
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Thank God! Cos Mum is out of hospital already and healthily recuperating (:I have a few things on my mind:
1) I friggin need to concentrate on studying
2) I WANNA LEARN SO MANY THINGS
With regards to that,
Like i've said, pop piano is my hot hot interest, singing is my passion, e.guit is my necessity.
And poor JR only has enough money to learn one course.
.....So, which do i pick?
Many say, "E.guit duh you playing that in your band ley."
True is true, but also someone told me, "Dont learn things for others, learn it for yourself. One day if the band gone, you learn guitar for what?"
True also right?
Moreover e.guit i have many friends or friends-friends in this case, that are pro guitar players. I could save cost and ask them for a tip or two >:)
So im down with singing and pop piano right?
My helpful brother specially made a psychological test for me to help me decide. Lol he made me choose between a few words, based on first impression and instinct.
Beauty/Enchanting
Loud/Melodious
Dreamer/Believer
Perfectonist/Opportunist
And a few more that i forgot....
So based on my answers, he concluded that i should take pop piano! (well actually that was always first in my list) singing next, and e.guit last. Lol
That pretty much helped me make up my mind thanks bro! (:
Ok i swear i'll study the whole day tmr.
footprints in the sand
HAPPY SISTER'S DAY Mei (:
Dear God, please shine your healing hands on my mum.
Make her feel better i'll do anything.
it's all about fun
Sunday, August 16, 2009
it's a battlefield
People come and go, how true is that?Quoted from my cousin:
"Cousins, no matter how long they never meet each other or talk to each other, the bond and the ties would always be there. However, friends, once they dont gather together for a period of time, the bonds fade. They come and go."
How true.
People really do come and go, and that puts regrets & disappointments in our lives. But afterall, it takes two hands to clap. If only one side of the friendship/relationship sees it as important to them, while the other side don't, there's nothing we can do about it, right? If someone tries to keep him/herself away from you, there's nothing you can do either, no matter how hard you try.
Over the years through what i've experienced over and over again, I find friendship, so hard to appreciate, because nothing ever works two willing ways (simply put it as it is a one-sided thing).
And it's a really sad thing. Oh well...
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On a side note, Spanish experts say that sleeping more than 8-9 hours a day contributes to you having higher chances of dementia and senility when you grow old. And also if you like to laze on your bed when you wake up (in chinese: lai4 chuang2), it similarly contributes to that too.
So those that have habits like these, it's time to change them before you have a mental ability of a 50 year old when you're 25.
I have no mood to study.
Baby baby baby
Saturday, August 15, 2009
DRIVING WAS CRAZY TODAY THERE WERE SO MANY CARS ON THE MAIN ROAD I ALMOST WENT CRAZY TRYING TO COORDINATE SO MANY STUFF AND AND MY HANDS WERE COLD AND SWEATY OK FINE IM DONE RANTINGBut driving is still fun anyway, next lesson's only after exams, sadddd.
Speaking bout exams, i haven't started studying you see how screwed i am?
Went visit Dahuang today and he's so cute (: I want a dog i can call my own too. I want i want....
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On a random note:
It sucks to not have a phone and it sucks even more to try to contact someone without a phone! >:(
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Anyway, isn't this cute!
Hahahaha. I need to study man! Motivate me, ...whoever will do!
Ride along in my dream car!
Thursday, August 13, 2009
CHEERS CUZ BLOGGER IS FINALLY BACK TO NORMALAND DAMNNN, DRIVING WUS FUN.
The thrill of stepping on the accelerator and brake pedal, the frightened sweaty palms holding the steering wheel, the damn-hard-to-handle handbrake, the fun of ticking the signal signs, the excitement of making a U-turn, the gan-chiongness when i overshoot 40km/h (eh it's like damn fast if you're driving for the first time. I felt i could just langa onto anything and everything), and most of all the laughs from the friendly instructor of the panic-stricken face of mine. Lmao. Eh, i'm panic-stricken cos partially it's my first time and also cos I AM FRIGGIN DRIVING ON A REAL ROAD.
Yes i take private so i'm not cooped in CDC and you know how that feels? One word: Shiok. But then, also another word: Shit, cos there are cars and lorries (yes humongous ones) at the industrial area. Everytime i see a vehicle coming from the T-junction and i'm passing through my OS was "Oh f shit how to brake how to brake!?!?!" Cos they all look so unfriendly like they are not gonna give way to a beginner driver ):
But it's so thrilling and i love thrills :D
It's such an experience my first time sitting at the front driver seat of a real car (Mind you the only 'car' i've touched is daytona) omgggg it's so funnnnn but i don't know why my legs were all nua after driving. Totally. Felt like my calf muscles haven't stretched themselves for a zillion years.
Driving is addictive >:) My next lesson is two days away~
Rainbow after the storm!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Is blogger finally okay or still as screwed up as ever. Damnit shouldn't have changed to blogger la!!ANYWAY ITS AN EXCITING WEEK AHEAD!!
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TOMORROW IS MY FIRST DRIVING LESSON (LIKE F-FINALLY) I AM SO SO SO EXCITED MAN!!!! 3.30pm 3.30pm must remind myself. ^^v ^^v ^^v
FRIDAY IS LUNCH @ TOPTABLE WITH THE CLIQUE AND ALSO DINNER @ CHOMP CHOMP WITH LOUISA FOONG (AT LAST RIGHT I KNOW)
SATURDAY IS SIP BRIEFING DAY WHICH JUST REMINDED ME I HAVE TO GO LOOK FOR MY SIP CONTRACT
AND ALSO SUNDAY WE ARE GOING TO COLLECT THE PHOTOSHOOTS SOFT COPY + ALBUM OMG SO COOL >:)
Then the next week onwards is PIA-STUDY WEEK.
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>:)
I can do this man!!!
Last semester of projects & exams cmon cmon Jo you can do it pet grooming course is nearing nearing nearing :) :) :)
I see it all in your eyes
Monday, August 10, 2009
The way your mood totally changed after we left the rest,The way you kept quiet throughout the whole bus ride,
The way you just stared into space while walking,
The way you held my hand tight while walking home,
The way you tried to force a smile on your face,
The way you hung your head low leaving without taking a second glance at me like you usually would
I know it all, and you know I know it too.
Looking through the facade that you've put up,
I can see that you're sad, very, to be exact.
I know you didn't want things to conclude this way,
And i don't know what i can say to make you feel better...
Cheer up baby.
Pick up the pieces, walk with me, hand in hand
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Monday was totally a bullshit day for me i am so lazy to repeat all my experiences all again but anyway just know that my Monday sucked badly i would never want another of it.---
Went to SakaeSushi yesterday at Northpoint with Baby and wow Northpoint is COOL SHIT. Just in case you dont know where is that it's at Yishun. Both of our first time there (suaku i know) and it's damn niceeee. Especially the japanese-themed foodcourt omgggg the aroma of japanese food that greets you when you get in..... Almost felt i was in Heaven.
Look at the excitement. lol
Do food really make you that happy ahahaha
Standard procedure of all restaurants visited. hahaha
Yours trulyyy
And and and,
I AM SO FASCINATED OVER THIS!!!!
OMG SO CUTE RIGHT. i don't know about you guys but this is definitely my first time seeing this frog mouse in all my visits to Sakae.
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Walked the huskies today with Aunty Jen and we covered quite a part of AMK Ave 3. It was the first time the both of them walked together so they were even more excited than I was. Wow not an easy task, i can see why Aunty Jen wouldn't walk them together cos it requires ALOT, and i mean really alot of strength. My fingers nearly broke trying to hold Ray back. He was so excited that he practically ran everywhere. When i dint allow him to run he whined it sounded so poor thing so alright i ran along with him instead >,<
I love walking them though cos i dont even have to jog or run a few kilometres and stuff. I can burn off loads of calories just from the sweat of handling their robust frame and immense strength hahahha >:)
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Right now i wanna cut the lower part of my body off cos the thing of the month is here again and it's hurting me like hell that i'm hungry but i don't have the appetite to eat ):
Oh, i think my grandma misses you she asked why you aren't here today. hahahaha^^
Showhand
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Cos time after time life proves to me that Nothing is worth fighting for.